This is a question that unnerves most physicians- what if the disease that you specialize in treating is the one that ends up afflicting you? Here I have imagined an oncologist (cancer specialist) who gets diagnosed with the cancer that he has devoted his life to understanding and treating.
I knew unnerving it would be
With tables turned, undoubtedly
Little though I was prepared
For the diagnosis that now stared
Me in my face- I shook my head in disbelief
And then had a sense of deja vu brief
Of myself pronouncing the same words
In what seemed like another world
To patients of mine, a novice I was not
To life-changing words, I had taught
Myself to break such news gently-
Now the same tone for being used for me…
In the next moment I felt as if the ground
Beneath my feet had moved, no sound
Would escape my lips, though I was crying
I knew not what, but something within me was dying
Even then, in the midst of all that grief
I could not help shaking my head in disbelief
That the cancer in whose treatment I specialized
Had in a twist of fate within me materialized..
How do you give yourself a prognosis
Was the question tormenting me after my diagnosis
I threw myself into research with greater zeal
Even as the cancer eroding me I could feel
Today, lying on my death-bed, at least I know
The seeds of research I planted will continue to grow
To explore more of the disease that gave me
A purpose in life, as well as my mortality.
(Image source: https://www.cancer.gov/about-cancer/understanding/what-is-cancer)
I have thought of this so very often about both my oncologist and my oncology surgeon. What would they do but what would I do? I so rely on them for everything. Great thought, great post.
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Thank you!
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heart touching lines
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Thank you for your kind comments!
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