I’m trying to resolve this paradox within me
On one hand I take comfort in familiarity
Predictable routines and rituals keep my anxiety at bay
But when nothing changes from day to day
I quickly get bored, I need mental stimulation
A new experience to indulge my senses, or a brief vacation
To shake up my routine, to introduce an element
Of novelty or a streak of adventure is my intent
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I think the reason for the paradox lies in the degree
To which each situation makes me feel in control completely
When my rituals are disrupted, things seem to get taken out of my hand
Therefore a regimented lifestyle I can better withstand
When I get bored by routines, I consciously choose
Novel experiences to satiate myself, I do not lose
Control of any part of my life, unlike the former situation
So I look for predictability at work and unpredictability on vacation
Passion...unbridled 