Why do I feel the need to seek permission

As if alone I cannot make the decision

To curl up in bed, leave chores incomplete

Sleep with abandon, no deadlines meet

At work, at home, children’s assignments from school

Maybe for a day, forget all the rules..

But the idea of loosening up is scary to me

What if my carefully constructed life goes awry

Our collective sanity depends, I believe

On my meticulous planning, if I leave

Anything to chance, disaster would unfold

My family would be subjected to miseries untold..

Thus taking time out for myself does appear

An unnecessary, selfish indulgence, I fear

So even when no one imposes demands on me

I carry the burden of keeping my home orderly

And look for permission from…I realized just now

The never-ending list of tasks- that list never allows

Me to take time off, pencil in “vacation” days

Therefore my life goes on in the same busy way…


So here’s my new resolution for me

I’ll give myself permission to be tardy

Leave tasks until later, rest when I feel the need

I don’t need to ask anyone else indeed!

Published by iheart11

A 30-something year old woman, physician by profession, fiercely passionate about work, family, travel and fashion..

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