Why do I feel the need to seek permission
As if alone I cannot make the decision
To curl up in bed, leave chores incomplete
Sleep with abandon, no deadlines meet
At work, at home, children’s assignments from school
Maybe for a day, forget all the rules..
But the idea of loosening up is scary to me
What if my carefully constructed life goes awry
Our collective sanity depends, I believe
On my meticulous planning, if I leave
Anything to chance, disaster would unfold
My family would be subjected to miseries untold..
Thus taking time out for myself does appear
An unnecessary, selfish indulgence, I fear
So even when no one imposes demands on me
I carry the burden of keeping my home orderly
And look for permission from…I realized just now
The never-ending list of tasks- that list never allows
Me to take time off, pencil in “vacation” days
Therefore my life goes on in the same busy way…
So here’s my new resolution for me
I’ll give myself permission to be tardy
Leave tasks until later, rest when I feel the need
I don’t need to ask anyone else indeed!