Guilty Pleasure

For my problems I do not have a solution

So my brain and heart work in collusion

To come up with means of distraction

And I deflect my sorrow into a questionable action

I started shopping for things I do not need online

I try to lose myself in the aesthetics of fashion and design

Before long, I have stress-shopped more than I did intend

To soothe my emotions that are too fragile to mend

I take solace in knowing that at least I’ve not broken the bank

For that, I have my conditioning around money to thank..

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Buying something new gives me temporary relief

But this strategy does not align with my cherished belief

Of decreasing conspicuous consumption, so I feel a twinge of guilt

Towards solving my problems with shopping, resistance I must build

Besides, shopping is for bullet holes a bandaid

I actually need to work on my emotions frayed

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Let me try to treat myself the right way

Take a walk, read or daydream away