Trauma Response

This is something

I just realized

I over-explain

I over-apologize

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Of past trauma

These are signs

But no traumatic event

Comes to my mind

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Over-anxious

Hyper-vigilant

This is the way

My days are spent

Classic fawn response

A net search tells me

If there was trauma

I have no memory

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I have to dig deep

Past trauma exorcize

To move forward without fear

It is no surprise

That I am stuck

I cannot move

From my position

I cannot improve..

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If I don’t remember

Should I try to retrieve

Memories that are repressed

Let sleeping dogs lie, I believe

I cannot erase the past

But I can make

My present more peaceful

For my own sake..

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Let me catch myself the next time

I explain too much or profusely apologize

By stopping right there my demons

I shall be able to exorcise