By being as critical as you are
Are you indicating that grapes are sour?
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Often, when I open my mouth to criticize
Divine intervention has made me realize
That this is a manifestation indeed
Of my insecurities, my pressing need
To justify what I lack and what I long to possess
The deficiency exacerbated by someone else’s success
And I become hypercritical as a way
Of keeping my intense disappointment at bay
It is a defense mechanism of the ugliest sort
Unfortunately to such lowly behavior I tend to resort…
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Someone has been watching out for me
Therefore the folly of my ways I can see
When I am being critical, I take a step back
And introspect honestly about what I lack
I consciously try to stop then and there
My grapes are sour, I am acutely aware..
Passion...unbridled 
‘Schadenfreude is the experience of pleasure, joy, or self-satisfaction that comes from learning of or witnessing the troubles, failures, or humiliation of another person.’–Wikipedia
I think we all do it, but isn’t schadenfreude a fabulous word for a less than desirable trait?
That author that I told you about the other day, Anne Lamott, has a wonderful account of this with a friend in one of her books. She berates herself for it, but cannot contain her glee. Fortunately, both she and her friend can laugh about it.
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