Repentance…

I was angry and now I am repentant

The moment of anger came and went

I managed to say something hurtful in the heat

And even if similar behavior I were to never repeat

Probably permanent damage I have done

Is there a way forgiveness can be won?

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Words cannot ever be taken back

I was angry and judgment I then lacked

I can make a thousand excuses for being frustrated

Try to manage anger better but I feel devastated

At this moment thinking about what I said

Worst case scenarios are playing out in my head..

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I made a mistake and I intend to apologize

But I have sunk further in my own eyes

Each time I slip up it is harder for me to forgive

My own self, with increasing guilt I live

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Let me try to pray, or perhaps meditate

In this conflict my own inner voice has to mediate…

I have to work on self-perception some more

So I do not repeat the angry outburst I displayed before