Age and confidence

Was I more confident in my youth or is that a fable

That I tell myself, to feel that I am capable

Of projecting more confidence currently since I had done that in the past

Either way, I am trying to understand why I’m losing confidence fast…

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Was it the audacity of youth that had made me fearless

Or was it because in my youth I achieved success

In my career, but now I have stagnated

With that my confidence has also abated..

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Like most of us, in my youth invincible I felt

But with increasing number of years under my belt

I am clearly aware of my vulnerability

And that has snatched my confidence from me..

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Let me reframe this in terms of my age-

I am older, and under less pressure to engage

With the world around me in a conventional way

I should therefore be more confident today

Than I was before- I have nothing to prove

All my efforts should be directed to improve

In a direction in which I want to go

With faith, confidence, at my pace slow..