Category Archives: musings

I know you feel vulnerable here You have an illness, and you fear Being judged on any number of things A doctor’s visit a sense of insecurity brings You worry your lifestyle choices would be scrutinized You inability to afford medications would be revealed to outside eyes Your embarrassing indiscretions would come to light AllContinue reading “Doctor-patient relationship”

I have been working nonstop at my desk and I need A short break, a distraction, so I check my social media feed Photographs, rants, discussions on relevant topics as well I take in, then return to work, but my mind still dwells On the content I have mindlessly ingested Sucked into stuff in whichContinue reading “The exhausting break from work…”

Sometimes I wonder if I have already reached The pinnacle of my life, if time has bleached The vigor of youth completely out of me I wonder if in future I would be Energetic, insouciant as I was before Or would my future steps be measured much more.. * The finite nature of life’s yearsContinue reading “What should I leave?”

Driven by an inexplicable sense Of urgency, I live in perpetual impatience An instant noodle kind of life I desire To complete tasks fast I am wired I cannot wait for websites to load Or for traffic lights to turn green on the road My thoughts outrun my fingers on the keyboard If I haveContinue reading “Live Fast?”

I know what I am going to say here May be misconstrued, but let me be clear I am neither depressed nor a pessimist Only, in a constant state of happiness I don’t exist “You should be happy in every circumstance ” Is the mantra doled out, but I take a different stance Why wouldContinue reading “Toxic Positivity”

February is American Heart Month, a time to pay special attention to understanding, preventing and treating heart disease – the leading cause of death in the nation. This February, the 58th American Heart Month, the AHA is urging people all over the country to “reclaim your rhythm.” As I cardiologist, this is what I urgeContinue reading “Reclaim your rhythm”

You start a deep breath but suspend it in midair A voice inside your head tells you to beware Things are all right for now, but the balance is delicate A gust of wind can upset the orderly state You go through a mental checklist again Stay in control, do not relax the rein YouContinue reading “Anxious…”

When I was young I thought understanding meant Learning scientific principles, my time was spent In pouring over subatomic particles, DNA, RNA and such Newton’s laws and Einstein’s theories attracted me much I thought the world around me I could understand By understanding physical objects and the lay of the land.. I viewed the worldContinue reading “How do I understand the world?”

What do I call that longing deep inside To excel, to be recognized, to ride The wave of popularity, to be admired- Do I call it ambition, that burns like a fire Burns a hole in my heart again and again It is a visceral feeling, a constant dull pain Sometimes spurs me to action,Continue reading “Unrequited ambition”

You may get lucky if you are bold Thus the myth of the maverick is told Success stories seem to be replete With narratives of extraordinary feats Achieved by folks who took a leap Of faith, risk-takers who plunged deep Into turbulent waters and obtained Massive rewards, with minimal pain * These stories are inspiring,Continue reading “Myth of the Maverick”

I have been weighed down By heaviness all around The weight of expectations Air thick with nervous anticipation Anxiety over things out of control Pressurizing my mind and soul Ambition burying me down deep Lofty dreams breathing heavily on my sleep Clouds of despair laden with grief surround me Adding more heft to my abjectContinue reading “Tread lightly…”

From work I return, completely drained Having navigated a complex web again Of illness, death, pain, angst, anger, and more Each day seems more exhausting than the one before * The thought of preparing dinner right now Is daunting, and I am wondering how To rid myself of this tedious chore When I see chickpeasContinue reading “Cooking for Comfort”