Predictably depressed..

Premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD) is known to affect ~5% of women in the week or so prior to their period. It is characterized by severe irritability, depression or anxiety that improves 2-3 days after the period starts, and may need treatment in severe cases. This poem highlights how someone with PMDD might feel.

I feel exhausted and emotionally drained

The will to do anything has waned

I don’t want to engage with anyone today

I’ll curl up in my cocoon till the blues go away

My body aches, inside I feel numb

There is profound sadness to which I succumb

Like I have done every month for so many years

This is the time of the month that I fear

The rest of the month fairly reasonable am I

But depression just seems to rain on me from the sky

As the cycle of my body enters this phase

I morph into someone else, transformed by my craze

I keep this a closely guarded secret

But often end up behaving in a way I regret

In the next day or two, in embarrassment I reflect

On what I did, and resolve that next month I would deflect

My emotions such that damage they do not cause

I decide that next time I feel this way, I would pause

And take a break, but alas- life does not wait

For my mood to improve, I find myself in the same state

Month after month, year after year

I battle depression for a few days, I fear

Each time that the fog would not lift at all

And in a permanent depression I would fall

*

I know women have been ridiculed throughout

For being hormonal creatures, existing without

A well-functioning reasonable mind

Why is it that every month many of us find

Ourselves to be in a deep dark place

That is difficult to explain and harder to face…

*

I keep hoping next month lucky I would be

And sail through that time uneventfully…

Published by iheart11

A 30-something year old woman, physician by profession, fiercely passionate about work, family, travel and fashion..

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